naunie's Cancer Blog

January 29, 2008

Actress

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Lately I feel like I am in a movie and should get an award for being an actress. I walk around trying to smile and act normal at work. I even think I do a pretty good job at it. I went shopping for my mom and brought her home dresses that she could wear to my wedding and smiled away when inside my heart was breaking. She said she was excited to try them on but I know that she is breaking too. It is like this is all a movie where we need to play a role and can only cry sometimes because what is it going to do if we just cry all of the time…
I can’t imagine going to try my wedding dress on without my mom. Just a few months ago I was standing there with her with tears of joy in our eyes thinking WOW THIS IS GREAT, not knowing what was in store. I have been putting it off but I know that I have to be strong for her and go try it on. I am so thankful for everyday that I have with her and know that she will be there on my wedding day. BUT IT IS SO HARD. I just want to scream or cry or both.

Posted on January 29, 2008 at 6:32:16 PM by naunie ( Actress, 1 comment)

Hang in there Naunie! We are thinking of you.

Posted on January 30, 2008 at 6:01:25 PM by jill