naunie's Cancer Blog
January 22, 2008
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It is so hard sometimes… Everyone’s life is going on and being “normal.” I try to appear that my life is normal but many times I am screaming inside. I look at my friends and think, “You have no idea what I am thinking.” I don’t want them to feel what I am feeling because that would mean that they are hurting but it is so frustrating!


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I can totally relate. It really hit me one time in the grocery store. I looked around and everyone was shopping, probably thinking about what they were cooking for dinner and I remember feeling so different and alone. I was thinking about if I should do chemo or not or have a mastectomy or not.
So many of us could have written what you did. Everyone out there isn’t thinking about their normal lives. Many people are thinking about the things in ther lives that scare or worry them. It may be cancer, it may be a sick child, it may be an abusive relationship, it may be if their next paycheck will cover their expenses… You and i fear our cancer, but I also worry about my kids, and fear my husband. This is what life is. Our lives, and sometimes they suck. But try to focus, when you can manage it, on your blessings. I have trouble doing this, i mostly am screaming inside. Don’t you wish that you could just forget for a short while and not have cancer cloud your every thought? Me too.
Hi Naunie. Welcome to our little community. I am so sorry to hear about your mother’s diagnosis. Her fight is very similar to mine.
You questioned my blog yesterday and asked how you should look into your mother’s eyes. Very simple…unending love. When you look at her let her know you love her, support her and send her positive thoughts. Smile through your eyes…
Please do not let this disease consume either of you. Live life fully. I have learned the more I approach each day with a positive attitude and live as closely as I did before….that energy is sent back to me.
If you would like to learn more about me, please visit my personal blog at http://kathybienapfl.blogspot.com/
I will try. I like what you said, “Smile through your eyes.” Thank you!